deepest skin deep late night feels: it comes and goes

"sometimes, i feel like ripping apart my skin and search for a reason why i feel this empty"
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this gaping void inside of me has been awaken again tonight. i still cant put a finger to the reason why i feel this way time and time again after all these years. it feels like there's a hole in your chest longing and demanding to be filled with something i dont quite know. i hate feeling this vulnerable and helpless every time it hits me because it's the kind of emptiness which you cant do anything about- you just seat there and let it messes you inside and cry... what can i do to not feel like this out of the blue? it sucks to feel like this, it really does.

HSBC Treetop Walk

Caught up with a friend of mine many Fridays ago, over a hike. Yes hiking! I know what you're thinking and no we're not mad! Though it sounds crazy, it was nice to catch up on each other's life and be surrounded in nature plus work-out at the same time. The sound of the crickets were therapeutic and it helped to be away from the hustle and bustle. The last time I was at the HSBC Treetop walk was eight years ago, (gasp! where has time gone?!) when I was a Girl Guide.

Love how spontaneous my friend was when I casually suggested going hiking! Yay to little mini adventures!

You cant really tell from this picture but this is an (unexpected and) extremely steep slope up!!

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FINALLY MADE THIS HIKE HAPPEN!! WHOOP WHOOP ✌️😁

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So on the other side of this, awaits a long flight of stairs!

My feet were all jelly halfway down due to the same continuous movement.

This hike back in August says it all:

Life is full of ups and downs before you will be rewarded (with a breathtaking view),

even then nothing is temporary.

Literally.

So yeah... deal with it aka life!